God has better plans. We can never hold on to something forever, we should learn to leave and to let go… But people who’s close to us will always hold that special place in our hearts…

There’s a song which will really describe the things about me and my dad. Here is it: “>http://videokeman.com/music-videos/dance-with-my-father-luther-vandross/”>

It is so hard to put all description of him into words and paragraphs, so here’s a bulleted description:

1.        My dad is Virgilio B. Palma. My brother’s and mine’s name (Vryan and Vivian) was derived from the first letter of his name.

2.        I was born 1986, so he’s already 40 years old then.

 3.        During the days of my infancy, he used to balance me with his one hand (as if I was a stick in his hand).

4.        During our childhood, we love it when he took us for a bath. He will splash us cold water as if we’re dogs.hahahaha….

 5.       When I was younger (5y.o.) and my mom scolded at me, I will pack my things, place it in a very small bag, leave home and stay at our neighbor’s house. Then, after few hours of  PAGLALAYAS, I will tell my Tita Ada (our neighbor), “Tita Ada, uwi na ako. Kawawa naman ang Daddy ko, wala siyang kasama e”.

6.  He had never lay his hands on us. He disciplined without hurting us.

7.  He’s my friend and i was his daughter. He never left me especially when me and my mom argue, he is always there to comfort me.

8. He worked so hard for us. He tried piggery and poultry just to supply our needs and wants.

9. He and mom bought me my 1st and second phone. Even though we did have much in life, they give me everything i want (i was so selfish then and all the guilt is here, now i’m way lot older… i’m asking, how could i ever did that to them?).

10. When i was younger, i usually fell asleep in the sofa and he always carry me to bed. i miss it.

11. —— to be continued

I am still hurting and it takes every breath of mine to remember all the sufferings he had gone thru and that he’s not with us. But then again, to remember all the good memories and thinking he’s safe, well and happy with God, it brings joy and happiness to my heart.

I do miss him so much and I hope this pain will subside.

I did lost the greatest man of my life, but more than forever will he remain in my heart.

GOODBYE, DADDY!

I Love You So Much!